With first year nearly done, I look back at the lessons I've learned and realize how little my perspective on the world has changed. I expected to see a new world when I entered university, a world that was different from the world I had lived in. Yet, this was a childish fantasy, university was just a place with harder work, the people weren't any different.
So I consider, what have I been doing wrong? Do I just stay satisfied with the place I'm in now, with the people I know now? Or do I dream of a place that is different, with broader scope? If I truly am different, and don't fit in here, where must I look to find my place? Where should I start searching? I'm not really sure, and this uncertainty has lead me to settle for what I have now. But now, I wonder, maybe its because I'm in the 99th percentile, that I have to meet at least 100 people to find just one who understands. But what if I'm in an even smaller percentage than 1%, then I have to meet more than 100 people, and suddenly the world looks very different.
I guess I just have to meet more people, I need to go do the things I enjoy and find people who are like me. As rare as it may be, I have no choice, I live life to meet my own expectations, not to be happy with living above yours. I have my own dreams, and my own goals, and it's about time I started acting like I do.
No more slacking, no more lazy life style. It's time to move forward for my goals, finals are coming up and its time to carry all the slack I left behind this year. But most of all, its time I started believing in this world, and in myself. To hold more confidence, in my own ability to be the very best. I was born different, so I should strive to be who I am, rather than changing myself to suit situations. It's time I found the people who see the world as I do. This time though, I have much more hope. Even if I have to meet tens of thousands of people, that is my goal.
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