Emotions - The Burning Bonds

Time passes, one moment, the next, and another.
Each stacks upon the following, to link into something else.
Yet, as time goes by, I find myself struggling against the same issues.

This time last year, the pain was unsurmountable and in order to combat it, I threw everything, my heart and my soul out of my mind and entered an endless gaming phase.
Within a period of 2 months, I played an incredible 100 hours of games. This was my solution for that short existence, but in the end my true saviour was your existence. As I've said before, your timely intervention saved me from that loneliness. Your presence is a Victoria Cross of its own. Then with the help of two others, a park with seaweed, two who are full of fun with thoughts that supersede their own selves, I was relieve of my burden.

However, this time, my own losses sent me spiraling out of control, the burden of stress hitting my core as my thoughts for others became destructive. Your disappearence then was a tragic mis-step in my own defence and my own reactions became far more enraged. Yet, I held on to self-control, with blind words and mind, I tried to grip onto whatever I could find, but this time, I would come up empty. Even with warmth simple inches from my grasp, I would only feel cold. I realize now that those were done for my own sake, yet, the warmth that I seeked was edging away from my fingers.

Turning my back on life again, I threw my all into video games once more, playing endlessly, without purpose, without aim, simply with the goal of running way from it all. Without any warmth, I seeked shelter within the realms of empty worlds. I knew that this would only hold temporarily, but I could not carry the burden of solitude.

Giving up all I had was difficult, but just when my world, all aspects were falling once more, a different person stepped forward, and they, unbeknowest to them were the step to bringing me back to my senses and regaining my own ground. All she asked was a simple task, the act of trusting her own results upon my ability, and upon my own realization of faith was I able to realize what I was becoming. To her, I have yet to say thank you for what she did, yet, I do not think she will understand the magnitude of her simple action. So to you, young miss who for those few seconds became the Washington of my own existence, thank you. Your bond rebuilt my strength from the core out. Underestimation can be crippling, and you do more than you can ever believe. You have become the other foundation I rely on. Your tiemly invervention saved more than a few friendships.

Finally, you two, the seaweed park. Words will never describe what your presence has done for me. You truly are the foundation that I must have to stand strong, for now, upon you two I have grown, and hopefully, I shall be able to be on my own soon. However, without you, I crumbled and fell, far into the depths. Your return has allowed me to lean once more upon you until I shall be strong enough to stand free. Without you, that life felt hardly like my own, the emptiness I have when alone surpasses my own strength.

Your presence has kept me sane since grade 11, and until our paths will first diverge, I pray that I will be able to accept all that you have given, and begin a life you can believe in. A new design that shall shed light upon your own abilities, because you two are the foundation that holds me steady. Eventually, I shall become that which you shall be extremely proud of. He who finally met his potential face to face.