Ticking Time - Countdown

The ticker has started to move. The minutes are passing by, the day is approaching and preparation is due. To all who worry, read this and be rest assured, I have no regrets, no anger or pain. I do this of my freewill and I choose this solitude for my own strength. Do not worry, nor should you fret. This is something I must overcome before I can discover myself. In three months time, I will be in a foreign city, in solitude with half a world of distance and time between us, I may succumb to loneliness and homesickness. To be able to survive that unscathed, I need to prepare my own heart for the situation, and I am sickened by my own need to sever ties earlier in order to accomplish my own selfish desires. However, for this to be a success, I have to give something up. It pains me to do this, but I'd rather face it here where you can support me to try again rather than face it for the first time all alone against the world. That is the reason of my beliefs. So I ask you, do not falter. Believe in me, and believe that our friendship will make it through, because when I return, I shall mend all that I have damaged.