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I have no regrets, I did what I could and I gave my opportunities a chance. For once, I am not unhappy with my efforts and I'm satisfied with what I did. I can't say I am content with the results, but if it were that easy to get, it wouldn't be worth it in the first place.

I wish it could have been better, that I might not have to think about it in this way. But deep down I know it is better off this way, so I push forward, to move on. I live in a world that is too different from yours, you and I are too different, just like everyone is from me.

Don't expect me to be the person you think I am, and don't expect me to understand you. You fail to understand what it means to be Jayden, so how do you expect me to figure out what makes you tick. I care for your future and your well-being, but this isn't for me. I'm not meant for this kind of life.

So, I tell you that I'm meant to walk alone, I am now certain, that was what I was searching for today, and as of today I know what I was looking for. It is time I dropped what it means to be human, and live for the things that make me Jayden.

So I move forward, with lessons learned.