Remembering, Knowing, Believing

As I stared at the road that I had travelled
I realized that the world had unravelled
With a sense of unknown accomplishment
I felt like I had achieved nourishment.

Like always, time would be unforgiving
Going back, remembering; reliving
Memories of tears, memories of pain
Standing alone in blowing snow and pouring rain.

An inexplicable level of fear
After I found out that I could not hear
Banging on keys that were both black and white
Desperately searching with all my might.

Searching for your voice, it's all I needed
In my heart you left that yearning seeded
Looking and looking, I became more mindless
Finally finding my efforts fruitless.

Like a damn fool lost on the road of life
Again finding myself surrounded by strife
I curled up pitifully, tears falling
Barely clinging onto that wood railing.

Last time, I ran away from all of it
I just could not handle the painful hit
This time I knew I had to just face it
The fire in my soul was already lit.

Staring straight up, I found myself climbing
No consideration of undermining
Playing by the rules of the game of life
Trying to win without a gun or knife.

Acting as though everything was painless
Showing off, making it all seem pointless
I always thought your advice was heeded
This really happened because you pleaded.

It all does not matter, who ends up right
As long as the goal you seek is in sight
The engine starts running with that new gear
Now that the new world is already near.

Giving up time to go back down to main
Taking advice, checking another lane
No longer following paths, now paving
Distractions slowly but surely saving.

Finding myself within reduced lament
Getting over all the disappointment
To search for the happier life I lived
Into the new world I fearlessly dived.