"Hey." There he was, that one boy in her class, loud, obnoxious and as usual, in her way. Leaning against the building as if he owned the place, and as usual, he was pushing her limits. She ignored his attempt at conversation and moved past, she had better things to do then waste her time with him.
Of course he wouldn't take her obvious attempts of avoidance and keep his distance, no, he wasn't tactful like that. He darted through the crowd after her, trying to exchange a few words but she was too fast for him. She didn't have time to hear him talk, he would just scoff at her like he did to everyone else.
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"Hey." He said it, trying to keep calm, leaning against the wall. He could feel the adrenaline going as he tried to speak to her. He hated how he always ended up loud and arrogant whenever she was around. It was uncool, it was not his thing, and yet it always happened. He sighed, hopefully she hadn't noticed that side of him. He had waited all this time to have a chance of speaking to her. His face fell as she walked right by him, ignoring his attempt at conversation and slipping past toward the exit. He tried to chase after her, but his devastation had hit hard in the moment and he turned around, his day effectively ruined.
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Why is it that we judge others by actions and ourselves by intentions? This statement has two levels of truth to it. Firstly, is it wrong that we don't judge others by their intentions or is it wrong that we don't judge ourselves for our actions? Secondly, why do we have this urgent burning need to judge one another? Why can we not accept the fact that we make mistakes and sometimes, not everyone has the sense to apologize?
I always have a hard time forgiving myself for small mistakes that I make. I made the mistake of taking a seat from someone, offering it later, but kicking myself for not doing it earlier. I will never forgive myself for it, and I will never make that same mistake twice, but there's a similar thing that I always never end up doing. This thing is being more vocal about being thankful, and it's one of my biggest weaknesses as a person, but I have a hard time being truly grateful without being overly emotional. I'm very much more accomplished at sending emotional messages in writing than verbally. Even so, if I don't end up expressing my gratitude I end up losing sleep.
I just feel that people would get along with fewer problems if they'd just chill, relax, take a look at different perspectives and be more accepting of mistakes. If we took the time to analyze different perspectives before jumping to conclusions we'd have fewer stupid arguments between people.
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